Well here I go! This is my fight for life!

It has been slmost a week since my last post. In the last few days my life has been changed radically and I am preparing for more changes. To everything there is a season and this season is full of surprises. I have gone from acceptance and depression to acceptance with the fight in me stirred up. I will beat this. I have to. I have never won on the lottery because I don't believe in lotteries. I have never won at a casino for the same reason. I have been saving my win for this!!! All the challenges I have faced are culminating in this one. Big and Scary but I am not afraid of dying. I am afraid of not living to see my dreams realised in the lives of my granchildren. I HAVE to be there for them. Jennifer gave me the will to fight when I nearly lost the fight to encephalitis and tickbite fever and now both these gorgeous girls have my heart firmly in their hands. then there is still my tiny unborn grandchild. Whar's not to live for and not to fight for?
I can do this. I must do this. With God I WILL DO THIS!